Tuesday, November 14, 2006,11:59 PM exam
im bored studying.
everyone's exams startin tml and they're all mugging hard.
alone in my room. feeling damn bored.
nobody to talk to. nobody to look for as entertainment.
exams are boring!
no matter how hard i try to be positive about it, it's just so hard to feel positive abt it. I dun dread the impending exams actually, but the time is really droning on me. damn bored studying everyday, repeating the same old routine of studying day in day out everyday,every morning, every night.
oh no. im feeling so negative today! who can come and relieve my boredom? sigh.
im BORED.
im so not in the mood to study that i just sat down and started reading my notes but nv do any mindmap tt i set out to do for marketing. And, im not gonna sit at my desk as usual to study. Im gonna lie on my bed and study. tts the state im in now.
hwa's coming back only tml morning. her exam's starting tml and ending on 1st dec.Says she damn stress. Though i always say her and sorta reprimand her for not asking for help and always staying in the room and not going out, im actually wishing she'll not be so stressed up. Dun wana see her go into depression or anything. If she's fine, im good too. She's not stressed, good for her, good for me.
Recently chatted with joyce online. Quite glad to receive a few of her smses the last few days. at least she remmebers and would sms me. asked her what she's been doing at home whether she's alrite and all, and she tells me: yeah.. having a fun time staring at the fan on the ceiling. what a weird response. Dunno how to react to that. Shld i be happy that she's admiting abt it? but it sounds quite wrong to hear tat, but as long as she's happy, im happy for her too. Miss those times. She sent me a video of yq dancing in a hula hoop in toys' r us when we were in tjc uniform. Damn funny. and then we said the quality very bad and she say she wana get a video recorder instead. and i alr resumed my contract with her to be her professional model. haha.
realised im happiest when im around my friends. separating me and letting me be alone for a day or even a night will be a nightmare. Iwld be pessimistic, sad, depressed and bored. like now. Only when im recounting stories about my friends or mixing arnd them then i'd feel happy. Perhaps thats why pisces are loyal friends, because they enjoy friends' company. I may not be there at all occasions for my friends or maybe too lazy to do things specially for them, but if they need me, i'd definitely be there. Even if its just sitting next to them and looking at them and listening to them, im fine too. but then again, who isnt happy around friends except loner?
alrites. im gonna lie on my bed and read textbook le.
how come we're all still so stressed up when we are studying in uni where there's only 4 to 5 subjects per semester and we dun ahve to remmeber for next sem, and there's so little compared to jc or sec?? weirds...
