Wednesday, April 25, 2007,1:59 AM exams ending exams ending. the period of mugging is coming to an end soon. for majority of yr 1 students, the exams end on friday. how nice. awww... but ME, I end on monday. WTH. nvm. endurance is the way to success.
with the recent events that have happened, it made me realise some things.
zsqy. remmeber? char u always use on steph. haha. now it's my turn to use it.
zsqy is a term that ppl use to describe others in love. zhong se qing you, they call it. what a familiar term. brings me back to sec 2. i miss those times.
anyway, i realised that zsqy just doesnt relate to every single relationships without fail. it's not a direct link to pple who just started to fall in love. Rather, it often depends on how the pple behave after falling in love, being the deciding factor for zsqy.
i dun feel neglected amidst all these. i dun find u zsqy at all. i know u're trying hard to be the same and i appreciate that! but well, there are always time to be spent alone isnt it? at the end of the day, i still stick to the same sentence: I love u, even though u dun love me anymore! LOL.
i guess its just me. i really cant imagine how ppl can go out alone with couples. it just feels so weird! but well, i think if everybody behaves normally, its fine. haha.
there's no need to try to behave super normally though. like at the busstop, i cld see that u two were sitting far off so as to avoid the couple signal. like in the bus, i cld see that u two were sitting separatly so as to avoid couple signal. OR isit it was too cramp?! haha. FAT.
yes. u are whom im blogging about. u know who u are. haha. i love u though u dun love me anymore! lol. u know im kidding with this sentence rite. haha.
the point im getting at is, the harder u try to act indifferent, the greater the emphasis is to me. haha. maybe, just be normal. things wld be easier and more comfortable. in anyway, not more chance too. lol. 8thmay coming.
btw.. there's this song lingering in my mind every so often nowadays. i wonder why. and i cant find the lyics and it suddenlyslipped my mind. weirds.
Friday, April 13, 2007,3:27 AM Honour List I love my family. I love my boyfriend, Vincent Tang. I love my kindergarten mate, Glenda Tan. I love my pri sch mate, Elisha Phua. I love my sec sch friends, Charlene Lim, Stephanie Lie, Tan Li Zi, Marissa Yoeliawan. I love my Jc friends, Joyce Chong, Leow Yu Qing, Lim Li Wei , Juan Juan, Janice Tan. I love my Hall mates, The Stars. I love my circle of trust, Leon Cai, Regina Lim Li Yuan. I love my unclassifiable friends, Lewis Liu, Joel Lee. Are you in here? =) Wednesday, April 11, 2007,3:13 AM HOME I miss the good old days..
Another summer day Has come and gone away in Paris and Rome But I wanna go home
Maybe surrounded by a million people I Still feel all alone I just wanna go home Oh I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you Each one a line or two“I’m fine baby, how are you?” Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough My words were cold and flat And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane Another sunny place I’m lucky I know But I wanna go home I’ve got to go home
Let me go home I’m just too far from where you are I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life It’s like I just stepped outside When everything was going right And I know just why you could not come along with me But this was not your dream But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come and gone away And even Paris and Rome And I wanna go home Let me go home
And I’m surrounded by a million people IStill feel alone Oh, let go home Oh, I miss you, you know Let me go home
I’ve had my run Baby, I’m done I gotta go home Let me go home It will all right I’ll be home tonight I’m coming back home
i'm tired. can u see it?
i cant wait for the end of exams. there is a likelihood that regina may go for instep at scotland. of cus i cant bear to see u leave rite... but well.. for the better future and for ur happiness..and esp since its wat u want... i hope u get it k?! im not tt mean and evil to wish u dun get it.
Monday, April 09, 2007,2:38 PM exam period
haven blogged for quite some time.haha. not very long actually.. but..
regina's sleeping.joonie's having lesson..so supposed to wait for regina to wake up at 3pm to study together at the function hall.
was talking to joel yday.. quite sad that you're gonna leave! i'll miss u. haha. in a friend's sense of way.. pple dun anyhow think ar. one less friend in halll.. how this friendship will turn out in future is not for us to say or predict. shall see how things go.
pple breakng up.. pple getting together. hall's really an interesting place to see how relationships develop. to those who break...hope your hearts will be complete again though u probably will still feel empty somehow..but at least, good enuf to get on with life. to those who just got together, good for u! treasure it and make it last i hope.
hall's really interesting. let me take a note on how friendships evolve in my first yr. leon cai. dun say i will forget. stop betting tt i wil forget.
i first entered ntu as a freshie. got to know pk leon alex and became close friends after foc. ys and pk are roomies, leon and joonie roomies while junye and alex were roomies so they both joined in. that made our clique become 7 pple instead of 4.
then.. i got to know joel thru my sister. for all i know, didnt expect it, manage to be gd friends with him. can talk abt alot of things!
then.. exam period. I dunno how but somehow regina came into the picture. i remember daniel darren and bird bird were sittig in another table studying and we didnt know each other tt well yet. then leon me and regina had a study camp and we became the closest friends in hall.
after exams came the holidays. interhall games saw the bonding of bird bird clique with our clique. the three girls ys regina pk became good friends and the guys got closer to them tog. they started to hang out often and all they said was abt interhall. how boring! me leon alex were left out.
after hols.. sch restarted. various cliques bonded. se came nto the picture too cus she was regina roomie. everybody frequents regina's room to nua and play ps2. thats the story of the big gang.
now.. alex and se and ys are closer frens.. pk ys se all getting along well. me regina leon still good friends. with added company joonie and darren since we same class. and there's more developments still.
a big gang. how long can this last? takes tonnes of efforts.. and we can see the cliques alr! but well..nothing to be sad about i guess... its part and parcel of life isnt it? pple just come and go. if you're really close and impt to me as a friend.. u wldnt be the one to come and go. trust me.
Monday, April 02, 2007,5:50 PM breakups Haven been blogging recently cus i just dun seem to have the time. And each time i feel like blogging, I dunno wat i shld blog. Anyhows, life's been fine for me rite now. No surprises. no shocks.
Seems like alot of my close friends are experiencing a heartbreak. And the thing is, they're all my close friends. Hmmm..how come?
Anyways, if both of you all are reading, i wana say.. reading ur entries make me feel very sad! I guess there's nothing that i can do to help u guys get through it.. but.. i'll be there if u need me k? Maybe not physically since im quite tied up with exams and project, but.. a call or two..will be ok! I'll make sure i spend time listening to u guys k?
Watever it is.. i hope u all get over it..get through it quick. All of u are strong enuf.. im sure u all can do it. If all else fails, let time do the job of healing. I believe time will heal all wounds. Maybe not completely cus im sure there will be a special place in ur hearts for that someone, even though the both of u all arent tog alr. but well, life will be fine all over again soon. Stay cheerful my friends!
