Thursday, February 08, 2007,1:04 AM run
i feel like going for a jog.
wats quality time? im getting depressed this week.
i guess, there's something wrong with me.
trying hard to rectify something can actually be so depressing when ur efforts somehow dun seem to work. the thought alone, of having to put in efforts to regain something when it came to u so easily then, is sad. and it gets worse when the efforts are being rebounded; maybe not intentionally but.. the slip of mind alone is worst.
let's just let nature take its course. im getting tired of trying to regain the distance lost; to pull it altogether again. but, its always so easy to say! i cant bear to let this slip away just like tt but there seems to be nothing tt i can do. even when u FINALLY put in CONSCIOUS efforts, the CONSCIOUS part alone simply keeps reminding me of the past. on one hand, im glad cus Finally, the efforts are coming in two-way, i dun feel alone anymore. on the other hand, i get reminded of all these all over again and again and its demoralising.
maybe its jsut different alr. shld or shld i not let nature take its course? maybe things will turn out well naturally. i dunno. or shld we just let it go?
my good frens @cchs: dun worry, i'll turn out fine. lets hang out during cny my good frens @jc: u guys take care ok. uni pple study hard dun get too stressed. non-uni students, enjoy ur life, live well ok. i'll be there if u all need a little chat! lewis: we'll go out when we're free. haha. u treat me for ur ORD! yay. marissa, steph: i ahven forgotten u guys. talk to me when u guys are free.u all seem so busy nowadays. im busy too i know.
i'll put on a smile everyday to make pple arnd me happy and myself happy. pardon me if i dun seem to smile as happily in front of u cus it seems like i need tonnes of efforts to do so. i wana do it but somehow, i cant seem to do it well.
