Saturday, April 19, 2008,1:40 AM my lousy life now
alrights.. u all want me to update right.. since im in such a mood to update now.. i shall give u a brief or maybe extensive update of my SUPER LOUSY semester. Oh..on top of tt.. it was a SUPER UNLUCKY semester too.
My last entry stopped at having a lousy slack tutor for my module. It doesn't stop there. She was obviously biased to guys, seconded by another guy friend in class. I had a group final presentation in class and we were the last and only all-girls group. Before that, the other groups presented and when the guys were obviously smoking their way through in response to the questions she posted, she said: "alright..i know u're smoking.. but well..nvm..carry on" in a very casual tone with a hypocritical smile.
MY group's turn now. We presented and the shit comes in when I was presenting my part. EVERY SINGLE, and i really mean EVERY SINGLE sentence was being shot down and questioned by her. Even when we tried to smoke like the guys did, she refused to let us go. It was definitely the WORST presentation I've ever gone to. Have u ever experienced that? Having every single sentence being scoffed at and being questioned. Don't tell me its common. Try being in my position, standing in front of the whole class and having EVERY SINGLE SENTENCE being commented NEGATIVELY upon. Add in that one sentence she said: "you guys wana know what you all shouldnt say during exam? This is the perfect example." OH.. another even better sentence : " Im not worried about ur presentation. If i were u guys, I would worry about ur final exams." THANKS my dear tutor.
Well, tat was unlucky affair 1. Well, I gotta admit that we actually really got some of our stuff wrong. But.. it just simply wasn't a good feeling when u spent your entire semester, weekends.. everyday from 10am to 9pm at the IT lab trying to make sense of the results.. only to get a C in return. Well, ironically.. it was the ONLY lesson our group actually learnt something from her, albeit at the wrong time wrong place and at a cost.
Lets move on to unlucky affair number 2. My school's professional attachment/internship program is screwed up. I literally mean SCREWED UP. The first phase is the one whereby grades are most importantt. I dun blame it if i dun get selected cus' the competition is the toughest. Phase 2.. where it is said that u can choose 6 companies.. and 80% gets selected and only around 20% fails. Now.. tell me.. whats the odds? I got into the 20%. Tell me about being unlucky.
Everybody says to me, in an attempt to console, that a lot other people also didn't get during phase 2. U're not alone. OK.. so? that just tells me who are the SAME UNLUCKY 20% batch with me. It really didn't help that the 3rd phase had only like 3 companies situated in the east or central locations while the other 11 were in the WEST side BOON LAY. wth. what can i say? Accept my fate, thats what I can only say. Well, I seek solace from the fact that at least i got into a well-known EDUCATIONAL institution called kaplan. Den again, tell me, wth am i doing in such an institution as a Banking student? Well, again, at least I get to do financial analysis and general accounts. Ha. Can you see the constant attempt to try and persuade myself it really isn't that bad? I have to, cus' thats the only way I can be positive about the job. That's my unlucky affair no. 2.
Moving on to the last straw, unlucky affair no. 3. I had an exam with two separate instructions: Point no. 1. This is a restricted open book exam. Point no. 2. You can bring in ONE language dictionary. Interpret that.
I interpreted as two separate instructions literally. And the norm I THOUGHT in school, from experience in my business school, was that restricted open book meant that I can bring in a piece of paper for reference. Well, thats what all the business students I know told me.
AH HA. Nah, the instructions were supposed to mean: This is a restricted open book exam and this MEANS that u can only bring in a language dictionary. What's unlucky about that? I dun think I'll divulge it here. U can go do the guesswork, and you'll probably get it right.
I have a last paper to do. I can only pull the remaining hope and strength I have for school and try concentrating on the upcoming paper. I'm totally convinced that I am in an unlucky streak this semester. If u can tell me whats lucky this semester, den maybe I will feel better and less convinced about my bad luck.
In case u wana know something outside my school life, let me give u a brief update too. Basically, there isn't anything new. My family stays the same, my bf stays the same, my friends stay the same. yea. How fun. And i miss all my friends who are abroad, like YUAN YUAN, Marissa and Steph. I know you two won't come back anytime soon. So... YUAN YUAN I'm pinning for you! come back! I MISS U!
